family MATTERS.
ladies and gentlemen , kiwana boy did not take any siestas today.. that's treacherous.. and horrifying.. i suddenly feel incomplete.. but from the past experiences[ in my 4 years in singapore] , sleep is a MUST for me , no .. everyone living in singapore.. and when i get to slack right now at this very moment, i just think of sleep , sleep and sleep. and of cos , eating and surfing the internet too. regularly, i have my driving lessons too, well i am 80% there before my prelims for driving tests, just left with driving up a hill.. haha, that's gonna be a scary one indeed. i need to practice balance and coordination between my clutch and accelerator.. my action potential and synapses must be EFFICIENT.. my ion gate channels must be on par .. my.. what the hell.. i'm gonna be an accountant..shan't revisit the shadow of my past.. haha.. yes back to my point.. my life can only be summarised this way: eat , sleep, drive, tv, internet. tada.. a wholesome life.. a perfect slacker's life...
reflection time:
now, that actually brought me instant happiness.. i mean no qualms abt life..just spending my time away, catching up with tv shows, .. then again, there's this conscience intervention, i gotta reduce my EQ lah.. when i stare acrossed the ceiling of my room at night.. i start to contemplate.. pondering on my dad's advices , mummy's constant naggings to exercise..aihz..am i going to be a good human.. when i slack.. i do realise that i'm just burning my life away ... and instead of reading up on some articles related to accountancy, i watch MTV.. it's so inevitable that i'll regret this doing later on in life.. but then again, i worked hard last year.. let me slack ba.. that's the opposition's view..haiz..
in the same vein, whoa,sounds gp nia... eversince returning home, i've longed for company.. i mean friends and gatherings outside of my house . everytime , i would sms my friends for the next activity and all , dying for some excitement and my outings never fail in making me happy cos my cranky jovial boistreous peeps .. well, we grew since primary school..no doubt that we''ll be close..however, this thought crashed in TODAY!
'boy, have you been a good son?'
that was a question that put a full stop to my train of thoughts at tht point of time. i am a good son. naughty ,yes but not to the extent of talking back or smoking cigarettes and all.. respect is definitely there, but once again, the quality time spent with my parents are rather limited. i was pretty disturbed by this issue, cos ' back there in singapore , i would always call my parents to rant , to joke , to laugh abt anything with them.. knowing tht being at home is the best thing that can happen to me at tht time. and now, when i am home, i just...slack. oh man, what's into me... i would like to blame on my laziness too. my dad always asked me to walk with him in the evenings.. while my mum persisted me on going to our new house nearby ..to take a look at it..but i decline them slumberly..WHY ?? aihz.. do you understand how i feel now, perhaps the picture of this emotion is kinda vague..talked to my sis online, she was asking me whether i'm facing some teenage life crisis..where friends seem to be more important at this stage.. i couldn't answer myself.. i definitely love my parents.. but i ain't showing it the way it's suppose to be..sometimes when we have to compromise our 'wants' in order to make people happy.. no matter how bad /reluctant we are.. i like my mum's saying especially after she watched her favourite taiwanese HOKKIEN drama:
'' son, girlfriends many,wife divorce or pass away.. can marry another one but parents and siblings ,only ONE. remember that."
oh parents.. i must change , i have begun to do the dishes for the family , massaged my dad voluntarily ... he loves it .. i've been massaging eversince ummm.. 8? hahaha..ah i finally let this chunk flow out of my mind.ah, my grammar sux eh.. my past and present tenses are pretty much screwed.. but i am sure you guys can comprehend lah huh... well today's reflection is abt a boy who lived apart from his parents for 4 years.. it might not apply to you guys out there. .. but one thing's for sure.. my mum's saying still holds. dun let this mindset of ' you would only treasure them when they're gone ' rule our mind.
family
MATTERS.one love ya'all
deh, kamsahamida.
11:58:00 PM
