feeling , old.
the past few days were just normal to me.. ahaha.. my laziness was really overwhelming.. haha.. let's talk about friday night , my 1st ever night drive.. haha.. was super scary lah .. because initially , when i looked at my rear mirror i saw so many spotlights shining on it .. thus , was a lil' confused with the positions of the car.. haha.. next up i was entering the car park of a shopping mall.. and i had to drive up a spiral.. wow.. it's so thrilling.. just keep spinning till u reach the top.. met my friends for a kbox session but unfortunately i was not able to celebrate my 1st night singing karaoke because my friend's voucher was not valid for the day .. therefore, we had to postpone to next week and we straight drove to a mamak stall for late supper and chatted all night long.. thought of crashing into my friends' UNIversity and campus next week.. haha, feel like mingling around with NEW people.. feasting my eyes on pretty gals and fishing out potential girls ..yah.. SUPER despo!!
today my aunt and uncle and my godfather came to give my family a SUPRISE.. haha.. i, who was in the midst of watching a drama was definitely caught off guard , immediately tidied up my room to look presentable.. my cousin and his son came along too and i played with my nephew. haha .. taught him how to spell, count and draw at the same time.. young children are definitely naive, loud , straightforward and innocent.. haha. caught up with my relatives' affairs and gossips .. sharing the 'new's ' is surely a must in my family .. especially my mum who is the SMOOTH operator .
talking about small children , i am easily entertained looking at small children playing around.. haha. i do sound 'paedophilic' aren't i ? but to those who did not perceive it that way, good for you .. WE are MATURE.. for the otherwise..tsk tsk. enuff said. ah yes , back to my point .. there was once.. this brother [abt 5 yrs old] was just punching his younger brother [3 yrs old] non-stop at a shopping mall.. what i found amusing was tht.. instead of crying because of the severe bully .. the younger one just kept coming back for more and laughed like hell.. hahaha.. oh man.. i was totally off the hook and started laughing like there 's no tomorrow.. if you were there.. you def say that i'm high on drugs ..for sure.. sometimes ..it's just good to laugh on trivial stuff..agree?
reflection time:
then when i was about to sleep..i decided to look at my past photos .. those taken in singapore since 2003.. looking at every single piece of them just brings back to SAWEET memories.. reminding how CRAZY [much more] i was back then .. hehe . i really like to share my experiences with someone ..okay , i do share my experiences with some of my peeps and my sis ..and my mum too. but , in my heart , i have always wished for a YOUNGER sibling.. a younger sister preferably.this was someone i would really pour out every single thing that happened in my life to .well, this sister of mine ..is really blood related lah of cos.. i do have some mei mei's in my life.. [bee ah , jam ah , huizyi ah] .. haha you all don't feel offended ah.. you guys are nice too.. call me mr emo, but there are times , i just become soft when i see an elder child holding hands with his/her younger brother/sister. i always tell myself how nice if that really happened to me..a younger sister that i can chat with , i can hug with , i can cry with , i can care for..teaching her in her subjects..watching her performance, gossip with her..playing sports with her.. but it never did. given a chance , sometimes , i wish my mum would really give birth to another one..i'm not implying that i'm deprived of love .. my bro and sister are the best siblings that occured to me in life..cherishing with everflowing care and love.. but haha..this is destiny and i'm resigning to it.
once a upon a time , i've asked my mummy ,
" mummy, why was i born into this world? and what's with the HUGE age gap btw me and my bro[10 years]?''
and the reply was .. '' i needed someone to ENTERTAIN ME. to keep me companied and to demolish the boredom''
i felt. - -" indescribable.
ah anyways.. that's that. some of my friends say .. younger siblings somehow are not really that exciting .. haha..they can be EXTRA troublesome ..irritating ..and because of their nature , they might even disrespect you . ouch .. that's painful for me to accept .. haha but through my friends' behaviour towards their younger siblings i can just tell it crystal clear. aihz..sometimes , people might not be able to see the long run .. that it these moments that make our lives WONDERFUL especially reminiscing the past together when we are grown up... i've done some recollections with my sister before and boy.. the bond just strengthens immediately . do you feel me?
i'm already 20 this year.. 5/6 years down the road.. i can foresee some of friends getting married already.. and let me tell you something . 5/6 years will pass by VERY VERY FAST judging on how my bro has gone thru... then i can imagine myself holding my friends' children by the time i hit 28.. haha .. oh man.. i dun wanna grow old that fast.. i feel robbed of my youth years like i mentioned in my past entry..my dad still thinks i maturing at a slow rate.. lol..perhaps i don't intend to show him that's all ..cos everyday .. i will just YAK YAK and YAK away with my mum.. telling her about my dreams .. just laughing at myself for no reason.. and my dad will just shake his head and say .. university is not going to be easy. ah.. what an impression i have left on my dad..
-shrugs-
those who were successful in their appeals.. GOOD! for you .. two thumbs up.. those who are still waiting.. don't think too much over it..if it's yours it's yours! keep that spirit high. AJA AJA!.. those who are just rotting away at home.. DO SOME COMMUNITY SERVICE or donate blood.. save a LIFE !! i am going to donate in singapore once i get back.. go collect the colourful armband..hehe.. i feel so GAY!
one love ya'all
deh,kamsahamida.
9:15:00 PM
