one helluva week.
ahn yeong !
reached singapore on tuesday and the moment i reached my bro's place , i immediately rushed to my sis com and started surfing the speedy internet.. it was just like refreshing cold water quenching my parched throat.. like the saying goes, there's no place like home. muahaha.
went thru my uni package.. there were so many flyers on various activities but UNFORTUNATELY nothing interests me.. that's sad.. for a very crazy person like me .. it's actually rare for me to feel this way .. *sighs* thankfully, i still have my hall orientation for me to attend to. yesh~ gonna meet all sorts of people .. hopefully i get to meet some ang mohs.. and korean and japanese ..and swedish..and swiss..and some aussie.. and the list goes on...
let's KISS shall we?
keep it short n simple.
keywords for my pastweek were:
eCONOmIc RICe.YoUtuBe.DaNgYunHaJi.Chaeyeon.mushy.casanova.CARL's JUNIOR [DOUBLE BACON cHEESEburGEr which was like super Yummy].DAYTONA and SPOTTING the differences..kObAYasHi. NUS!!!!.YOUTUBE.CRUNCHYROLL.naRUTo shiPPuuDen.bleaCh.NTU DECLARATION FORM. NOnsTOp4.SALARY DELAYED by TWo MONTHs.CLARKE QUAY . niece! our 'm'sian' waiter.HAAGEN daz[RUM n RAISIN]. BOYs of s19. sisters.one night in BEIJING. japanese cosPLAY. careers and courses. 2nd row for TrANSformERs--
''hurry put the cube into my chest and DISGUSTING''.neck pain, eye pain. it's just a movie of lump of metal clanking ..hehehe.BUTTERFLY buns . KOREAN juMBO hotDOG. BARLEY 99cents. ping PONG. and my newest collection: MAHJONG -PONG and EAT! JUNIOR! SaLARY pAID[god bless you]. 15 pretty gals in 10 minutes in orchard road. OHHH...my eyes..
without a doubt ,life has been very been nice for the past week looking at how much things.. nothing but happiness..talked to my lovely junior and was wishing her all the very best for her tests..hehe..out of the sudden .. i told her..i was scared to fall in love.. then she say ..never try means never know.. a simple line that just kills me . well, it's not that i never try... it's just that i have a strong feeling.. i am not fit to be in one in the 1st place. inferiority kills. haha.. my scenario.. no need to try , i already know. haha, that's just a random piece of my mind.
yesh, my life as an accountant has already been set. my future goals now:
1) to ''struggle'' for my 1st class honours
2) to participate in a business competition
3) to break free from the boring and stressful working lifestyle. i shall redefine it!
4) to earn LOTS of money
5) to buy a TOYOTA WISH. yes! i must get it.
6) to paste POSTERS of my idolS when i get into my hall. ----abit out of pt.well, accountants need INSPIRATIOns!
i have been saving up from my 3.5 months of work .. and yet, i stilll have not rewarded myself with anything that is meaningful, most of the time, $$ was spent on food , arcade and food again. sighs.. now , uni life is just around the corner, my wishlist might seem irrelevant. i'm seriously thinking of setting aside those hard-earned savings for my hostel fees and daily expenses.. and i shall name it..''ERIC HEAH's ScHolaRshIp'' . *lol* i am sure that scholarship can only last for like 2 weeks.
my dark mind:some people are just not committed . why must i waste my time on them?
some people are just irresponsible. why bother taking up the responsibilty in the 1st place?
some people are scared of karma. why still commit bad things ?
some people are just plastic. why must i still entertain you?
some people want to move on. why still ponder?
some people can't be helped. why do i bother?
i can help people but i can't help myself. what a state to be in.this is a major weakness in me since a very tender age. i help people without thinking twice. but at times, i myself get hurt at the very end. i always need a 'shocker' or a super downfall to create a turning point for myself. people say 'once bitten twice shy' . but it ain't working for me. i know the consequences but yet i'm doing much about it . ONLY after i experience the undesired repercussion of my ignorance, i will learn my mistake. why must i choose this path ? it's so natural for me to do so. writing about it now is easy but taking the 1st step to change is definitely hard. UNI. LIFE must be a well prepared path. no rooms for mistake. those feelings were in the past.. and i sure hope that my future would not be overshadowed again.. nor my happiness for now be only temporary.
next goal: a super antisocial MUGGER. chiong ah!!
haha, it seems more like MISSION IMPOSSIBLE. people who know me would realise that too ,ryt? sometimes , venturing into your dark thoughts would make u think abit more..
one love ya'all
deh , kamsahamida.
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