recomposure.
hello life,
yet again , another blue-ey day for me. just gotten back my written assignment with a b- grade and b+ for my overall course component for accountings. *sobs*
well, this is life, u put in effort and SOMETIMEs, the results are just ain't proportional.
none the less, i have gone thru much more shit in NJ .. so whats this huh.. haha no excuses to be idling away for these setbacks.. hell no. what gave me the assurance? my parents.
mummy don't seemed worried at all. so i have no rights to be depressed either.
daddy's constantly pushing me on. NO parents = no eric. damn right . i loves me parents.
just cleaned my room as i had no mood to study .. oh i just finished doing some papers though... still facing difficulties for biz law and accounting.. its still a week away.. now the scarier part would be information technology. ah , this subject is really about luck lah .. whether you can think of the answers on the spot is the subject ryt now. anyways, i have set aside time for IT.
deep down , my hunger for excellence is still lurking somewhere .. tell me , who doesn't wanna do well. jiayou lah .. A+ for my final papers. haha .. at least it sets off the lousy half.. UPs lah ...UPs..
kuan yee , i have linked you ! thanks for the supports yah. must keep in touch . to my jiemeis , xiongdis..kamsahamida.
going to bathe now. prob enjoying a cup noodle with my neighbours later ..
'' datuk, dengarkan kata-kata cucu ya '' .
be with me .
1:40:00 AM
i know that goodbye means nothing at all..
hi world, my deepest apologies for not updating for nearly 3 months.. life in ntu is seriously damn busy. i strongly beg to differ to the fact where university life is fun. i can summarise my life in these few words, project tutorial deadlines, hallmate gatherings.. thats it. my simple life, yet time flies. there are definitely more pleasant memories to jot down in this blog.. but i've lost touched with my blog .. to all who tagged.. sorry for not replying yah.
it's 2.53am now ,
i feel abit emotional. ever wonder how a person's inner thoughts can be triggered with just one piece of photograph? just surfed up on somebody that was once or maybe not, IS still dearly to me . bittersweet memories just crop up out of nowhere and poof* here i am , not being able to sleep just thinking about what i have done and we've shared together. listening to this song '' SHE WILL BE LOVED'' by maroon 5 , really brings me back to our time..it's been 4 years ..
somehow i cannot explain for my regrettable actions and i understand that you cannot forgive me for all the pain i've put you through . if i'd told ya , it's a natural reaction, it will just not change anything ..
- if only i could turn back time,
- if only, i have said it out loud and clear.
- if only, i could predict the outcome
if only..
i would like to apologise to you my friend. i feel lost sometimes when it comes to feelings.. the facade is definitely overwhelming. we met this year, i was glad to see you but i just felt awkward a lil bit to express it out. oh dear , we definitely can't restore our original positions . i just would wanna keep in touch with you again. you know, a simple hi, how are you ? any eye candies ? kinda convo. but i just don't have the courage to pick myself up again. perhaps it's just my own karma and i am willing to face the consequences. there are things that i still remember about you ..
this may sound hypocritical but i would wanna move on completely. Years have passed,it's still difficult. i am sure you'd have. (:
*sighs*
i hope that this feeling will be gone after my sleeeeeeep.
''a promise that has been broken , not to be forgotten nor forgiven. for i am guilty''
take care and all the best to those taking their a levels and having their uni exams in weeks time. i am grateful to have great companies by my side now. thank you god.
2:48:00 AM
