wHeRe NoNSeNse MEeTS SubSTaNCe

i know that goodbye means nothing at all..

hi world, my deepest apologies for not updating for nearly 3 months.. life in ntu is seriously damn busy. i strongly beg to differ to the fact where university life is fun. i can summarise my life in these few words, project tutorial deadlines, hallmate gatherings.. thats it. my simple life, yet time flies. there are definitely more pleasant memories to jot down in this blog.. but i've lost touched with my blog .. to all who tagged.. sorry for not replying yah.

it's 2.53am now ,
i feel abit emotional. ever wonder how a person's inner thoughts can be triggered with just one piece of photograph? just surfed up on somebody that was once or maybe not, IS still dearly to me . bittersweet memories just crop up out of nowhere and poof* here i am , not being able to sleep just thinking about what i have done and we've shared together. listening to this song '' SHE WILL BE LOVED'' by maroon 5 , really brings me back to our time..it's been 4 years ..
somehow i cannot explain for my regrettable actions and i understand that you cannot forgive me for all the pain i've put you through . if i'd told ya , it's a natural reaction, it will just not change anything ..

if only i could turn back time,
if only, i have said it out loud and clear.
if only, i could predict the outcome

if only..

i would like to apologise to you my friend. i feel lost sometimes when it comes to feelings.. the facade is definitely overwhelming. we met this year, i was glad to see you but i just felt awkward a lil bit to express it out. oh dear , we definitely can't restore our original positions . i just would wanna keep in touch with you again. you know, a simple hi, how are you ? any eye candies ? kinda convo. but i just don't have the courage to pick myself up again. perhaps it's just my own karma and i am willing to face the consequences. there are things that i still remember about you ..

this may sound hypocritical but i would wanna move on completely. Years have passed,it's still difficult. i am sure you'd have. (:

*sighs*

i hope that this feeling will be gone after my sleeeeeeep.

''a promise that has been broken , not to be forgotten nor forgiven. for i am guilty''

take care and all the best to those taking their a levels and having their uni exams in weeks time. i am grateful to have great companies by my side now. thank you god.

2:48:00 AM

My Destiny
kIWAnA bOY
School: saint paul's institution[1994-2002] saint joseph's institution [2003-04] national junior college [2005-06]
faV cOLoUr: GreEn
fAV nuMbeR: 13 / 21
hObBiEs: gossiping,badminton, minesweeper, watching KOREAN dramas! and JAP animes,being a noob in DOTA
LiKEs: GiRLS, RUFFLES[bbq and cheddar cheese], desserts of any time[preferably cold ones] ,POCARI SWEAT! dIsLIKes: bitches who smokes,AP bastards,seafoods,
kIWANa WISH
1) longevity for parents
1.1) success in my siblings' career and my own life
2) happiness in my life and also for MY buddies' too
3) a new wardrobe
4) a cool sling bag
5) driving license
6) to meet someone who completes me.[cheesy nia] but seriously lah k =P