thank you.
finally , i avenged myself for sem1. some satisfaction. makes me believe the notion that hardwork brings results. thank you everyone who has supported me during my stressed-out periods. too many to be named but still i owe alot to my k family. i will continue fighting for my ambitions and screw you complacency,don't come near me.
but astro is a threat now, my coursework is kinda bad. gotta pia! 5 more days!
however, parents are coming down.. so.....hahaha..family time 1st.
-it's not the end,we've only just begun-
jiayou for the better, ppl!
one love ya'all
deh kamsahamida.
3:13:00 AM
kiwanaboy writes.
hello world, muahaha, yes it's true, it's me eric blogging again , secretly. well, i'm a grown up now. there's no need for me to oblige myself to blog periodically. i write whenever i wanna write.
life,
sem2 was a breeze, haha but i ain't sure about the results. lots have happened. friendships, sisterhood, misunderstandings, patching up, reunions, stress, acne-session, recurring and ongoing scalp infections, vday celebration, miscommunications, birthday celebrations, sucky accounting project,my new born nephew...these have shaped a newer part of me .
perhaps , i can summarise my sem 2 with this word: mood-swing.
aihz, this sem , i have been very reflective yet a big fat hypocrite. when i reflective, i tend to keep things to myself, show that natural black face of mine when im feeling perfectly fine inside. ppl , they call me emo-king when i emo, joker when i joke or talk rubbish ,
malay/gay when i do nothing at all. haha pay attention to that last line k. ahh.. such titles are no more than injection of humour into ppl's lives. i'm okay with it seriously. having no ego to begin with , such things i can tag along.as long as i know that deep down? I DON't WRONG anyone.
ppl say , hey eric, aren't u thinking too deep? aren't you taking this/that too seriously? heh, i can't answer these questions directly. well, FYI , recently , i've been talking to one of my dear friends, a very nice buddy, about this ...i realise, i do have a different side of me.. yupp. extrovert 100% and introvert also 100%. strange? nah, its who are around me at that point of time. i see that , when there are like one /two people, i immediately switch to a more serious side of me.. but when my k family members(most of the time) appear .. i will just zi high and become the silly stupid fool that everybody laughs at..oh btw, that's just a light hearted note. this is smth , i'm not sure to be scared of or just something i need to take note of , and try my utmost best to regulate and achieve this balance within me.
i shall bury the emo me , i don't emo for attention.. i just wanna regain back the happy go lucky me. no stress and let's just go with the flow .
i wanna be myself. a true blue simple guy . so what if i have no fashion sense? haha, well, actually i had none to begin with , truly those who have seen me in my clothes.. u can tell it for urself..indecent,uncle-like you name it.. ahahaha BUT ...be thankful, im not donning the emperor's new clothes. =P i'm comfortable w what i wear and nothing else matters.
it's raining now, freaking 3.43am. oooh i'm so loving it.. can feel my body breaking down slowwwwwly
ahh , b4 i forget lemme share a story of mine.. it's entitled 'the 44th minute of every hour''
these past 2 months, i have been NOTICING , observing the 44th minute on almost everytime
i glance upon time, be it watch , computer, chatting windows... GAWD.. i'm UBER paranoid abt this.. 1st thing that comes to my mind.. IS....not death. more of my gpa results.. lol.. haha kk on a serious note.. it is just a bad feeling ba.. come on, 44th minute leh .. SIAO eh .. one said, why are you so kancheong? dun look at the clock that often.
IT"S A HABIT. sien.. thing is i think my mind is SUBCONCIOUSLY counting the minutes away , and when it's abt to be the 44th minute, a quick impulse is sent from the brain to my neurons and right to my eyeballs, bringing about nothing but misery to my emotions. WHY god why ? is this a sign? haha a gpa of 4.4? hahaha that i don't mind. talking abt results its just hours away.. eh heck. i really have nth to say abt this sem. i just pray no Cs at all ... a b would do. just pull my cgpa to 4plus and i'll be happy.
i wanna enjoy life. i wanna regain some joy and happiness. the people ard me, they're great. nuff said.you guys know yourselves, dunno whether you'll be reading this , but then again , i thank you so much for the supports and love that u have showered me.
i'm blessed and i'm grateful for that. i don't really know when i'll be blogging again . but please god, protect and guide the ones who i care , love, cherish and am committed to. baby chris, when u grow older , i'll make sure u will have the best times of your life with great uncle eric around. i love you so much.
one love ya'all.
kamsahamida.
3:29:00 AM
